Hi god

well whats up. my life is going on fine.so from where to start. it is funny u know. i have substituted this blog with my personal diary. lot of things going on my mind. i will start one by one. day before i had a long chat with vinod. well it helped me a lot to share my feelings and also to put things in perspective. how it all started. well vinod was right in saying that everything is a state of mind. well that is very much true. as a result i am happy today and taking it easy.

well where to start. how do i intend to live my day as. would it be adapting myself to many situations but to admit that i am too a human and that i too cant strech myself a lot. well to be precise to tell you. i am not comfortable with the type of people i am interacting with. they are just too loud , too cunning and just too smart. well i am not all comfortable with these type of people, who are dominating. earlier i was trying to be with them, trying to befriend them and try to enjoy with them. i was thinking that if i dont do this then i am missing out the chances and the oppurtunities. well all this i was attempting at the cost of my peace of mind with the result that i used to come home feeling very depressed and so unsure of myself. i just wanted too much and just too soon. but i had not realised that i am internally bound and that i cant lie to myself and cant go against the basic nature i am in.

and it is better i dont try it. well god i have started this week on a positive note. i am starting a note by accepting myself . i am bunch of flowers. so i have got a list of my strengths, weaknesses and my basic nature , which i can tell attitude. for that it is one important characterstics is that. i need to be comfortable in what i am doing and for that
so i am taking it ok.
i am not going to impress anyone.
will concenterate on the work given to me
deal with the people i am comfortable with
gonna take a half hour walk at five thirty
have fun
enjoy

i want to end on the note on this point. i will do my duty and not try to keen. what is more important is my peace of mind and also i miss one opp then it does not mean end of the world. if i feel let down or feel little bit concerned , i just need to peep out and look at the blue sky above. god is there to help me out. he is there for me going to take perfect care of me.

thanks god

p.s. wc, tt, time bucket, dd , scale down , md