Hi god

from where to start . it was nice today. well from today the exams have started and what else . i m finally not going for it. well to be precise. there is some reason to why as i m not going. i perfectly believe you. i had always wanted to do social service and was near it. but because of some reasons could not make it. how to explain it to you god. well the people there are just taking more than a customary intereast and it has made me suspicious and what else how does it take it forward. well i have chicken out. aa bel mujhe maar. well leave it. it is not worth trying .this weekend was nice in the sense tat i enjoyed it. had a balmy sleep yesterday and did this and did that. well that was cool.

i have tried out so many things. my mood is sometimes too sullen. well i have just tried that god be with me. my life is coming back to same old ways. today i managed to go for a walk and to tell you the truth , it was heaven. i dont know what all i was thinking. but that's it. i have also have my bouts of depression and one question of which i have no answer. but i am not too much perturbed by it. i am happy the way my life is shaping up. well time is where i have started thinking as what all i want to do. how do i want to involve my family. what matters. is it money or the quality of life. well i have first explore different contours before i can say a thing but one thing is sure. i cant have north or south. what decision i take have to that. there is simply no going back and no thought processes

chalo i bid good bye

bless me lord

bye