When you're feeling down, blue, depressed, or however you want to call this feeling of unhappiness, people tend to advice you to hang around a bunch of friends (who are not depressed) to lift your spirits up. But does it really work? Is happiness contagious?
When i broke up with Darren, i was devastated. He meant the world to me, and even now I still have feelings for him, which is normal. I felt horrible, didnt want to eat, couldnt sleep, cried whenever i had the chance to... So i decided to hang out at Glen and Bina's house for a weekend. Glen and Bina are like the perfect couple to me. They love each other so much, and they always joke around each other and they're just so happy.. I thought it would help me. It didnt. Whenever they cuddled up, and kissed and said tender words to one another, or smile to one another i'd just feel like, why cant i be that happy? Dont i deserve that? It actually depressed me even more. I felt deprived at such a display of happiness. So i stopped seeing them at once.
I tried to get it together. Be alone, feel my pain. And let it flow away with my tears. I still have a long way to go. But yesterday i found myself smiling and feeling incredibly happy... for someone else! One of the ladies that work here with me was surprised by the visit of a long lost friend. It was a display of happiness again, of laughs, but it was so contagious i got the bug! It was good to see them happy, it made me happy too. I found myself smiling at trivialities: a toddler taking unsure steps, a car blasting with RnB driven by a grand dad, a silly screen name on msn! Crazy, but real!
I think happiness cant be contagious when you're depressed. You have to first make space in your soul, a corner where happines can shyly come through and eventually spread. It's a state of mind really. When you allow yourself to be happy, only then can you be happy.
