concentrate on something else I tell myself as my heart starts to cry
the drama queen inside of me is raging with pre menopausal strength
priorities honey priorities
i'm not mr. right, I'm mr right now
he looks at me like i'm a fool when I say that
concentrate on something else except how you feel and shit
you're not that important
your effect on those around you is more important
be more social
be more "gung ho"
don't drink like a fish
don't smoke like a chimney
don't fuck like a slut
live a low profile serious yet happy life
stop searching for the wrong kind of happiness
he tells me he prays for happiness in every prayer
he asks me if i pray
i dont
he tells me to watch "say it isn't so"
and look at that line about happiness
I don't thinks he grasps how disadvantaged I really am
fucking local national
get over the anger, don't let it take control of your existence
realize that you've never really lived the life of an advantaged person
and that i have to work hard to live that kinda life
work hard
what am i chinese now?
