I’ve finally decided on an official name and title for this damn thing. Pariah The Realist isn’t cutting it, You can’t use the word “The” in your name unless it’s deserving of it. Don’t get me wrong, I am a realist just the The Realist. The simple minded folks either confuse me for either an optimist or pacifist. I assure you, I am neither. By the definitions set forth by my peers I’m “pacifistic” about my my gut, my town, my current position in life. I’m “optimistic” about, way I see the future, the people I met and befriend (a blessing and a curse), and has a whole, myself. The problem with this is when I discuss the things I’m a “pacifist” on, I’m taken for being depressed about them. At certain times this is true, but not fully. In reality I’ve excepted my place in the universe .It’s not has a bodybuilder posing for playgirl getting laid by supermodels, going home to my big mansion sleeping on a bed full of $100 dollar bills & whipping my ass with $20s. Sad, but true. I never will be. Good.
I’m a guy who couldn’t pay money to be in playgirl, would have a hard time getting laid by a blind person, going home to a room in my parent’s house, sleeping in pennies, whipping my ass with 2-ply. I’m also a damn loyal friend, can find humor in anything (even if I’m the only one laughing. Some people don’t get humor),.Someone waiting for the day when I fufill my self-proclaimed destiny. Not thinking, not doubting, KNOWING that I will.My entire life I’ve been a “night person”. I hate that fucking term. “Night Person”. It’s not that I prefer the night time. Why would I? Everyone I talk to is asleep, it’s dark and colder. I just can’t sleep until 3-4 AM and can’t force myself out of bed until after noon.
It’s takes my brain awhile to digest the events of the day and make sense of them. Sometimes it’s damn hard when dealing with senselessness bullshit, but all you have to do is read between the cracks to figure it out. What people fail to realize is that when something doesn’t make sense to you, to someone else it does. You have to think like them.
To Be Continued...
